i pretend i’m okay.
i really am not
i wish i was happy
it might be different if i was dead
when I gave my life to God my best friend had not yet given her life to God. Well I thought becoming born again would make my life easy, well so not true. I always made mistakes,and my friend told me im not doing such a good job at being a born again, and that hurt. I would also say things wrong to my family, or to my friends, I would also do things wrong that would get me in trouble. I didnt feel worth enough to live, I just wanted to die. Not such a good thought, but so true. In our family bathroom i found a bottle that said poison on it. I was so tempted to take it, but I was too scared. I think God had a different plan for me. My life is a little better, but I need help, I just dont know how to tell my parents cause I dont want to tell them why. Please pray for me.
Dear R & M,
Death is never the answer. That I can promise you. There was a time when I was teen where my life felt terrible and I thought it would never get better. I am so grateful God kept me safe because I would have missed out on so many wonderful things. We have an enemy that is bent on doing only 3 things to us – to steal, to kill and to destroy. But Jesus came that we might have life – and might have it abundantly. (John 10:10). God does have a plan for you (Jer 29:11), but to be honest – that amazing plan for your life can only happen if you submit yourself to God, pursue Him with your whole heart and allow Him to guide you. We have to allow Jesus to be in the driver’s seat if we are to experience all that he has in store. It doesn’t mean that life will be all flowers and rainbows. Everyone has tough times, but that’s when we can draw close to God and allow Him to comfort us. We will make mistakes. And when we do, we humble ourselves before God, ask Him to forgive us, and lean on His strength to become more and more like Him.
If any of you are struggling with wanting to die – please call 1-800-273-8255 – get help.
Talk to someone. Don’t struggle all by yourself – there are people who care about you! I know it’s very scary to think about telling your parents, but you must.
You cannot hide in the dark – there is no help in the dark. But in the light – there is help – and hope. So talk to someone. Now.
Life is worth living. And you are precious to God, to me, and to many others. Don’t give up.
I am praying for you.