not okay

November 4, 2010 in depression & suicide, secret high school with 0 Comments

From R:

i pretend i’m okay.

i really am not

i wish i was happy

it might be different if i was dead

From M:

when I gave my life to God my best friend had not yet given her life to God. Well I thought becoming  born again would make my life easy, well so not true. I always made mistakes,and my friend told me im not doing such a good job at being a born again, and that hurt. I would also  say things wrong to my family, or to my friends, I would also do things wrong that would get me in trouble. I didnt feel worth enough to live, I just wanted to die. Not such a good thought, but so true. In our family bathroom i found a bottle that said poison on it. I was so tempted to take it, but I was too scared. I think God had a different plan for me. My life is a little better, but I need help, I just dont know how to tell my parents cause I dont want to tell them why. Please pray for me.

Dear R & M,

Death is never the answer. That I can promise you. There was a time when I was teen where my life felt terrible and I thought it would never get better. I am so grateful God kept me safe because I would have missed out on so many wonderful things. We have an enemy that is bent on doing only 3 things to us – to steal, to kill and to destroy. But Jesus came that we might have life – and might have it abundantly. (John 10:10). God does have a plan for you (Jer 29:11), but to be honest – that amazing plan for your life can only happen if you submit yourself to God, pursue Him with your whole heart and allow Him to guide you. We have to allow Jesus to be in the driver’s seat if we are to experience all that he has in store. It doesn’t mean that life will be all flowers and rainbows. Everyone has tough times, but that’s when we can draw close to God and allow Him to comfort us. We will make mistakes. And when we do, we humble ourselves before God, ask Him to forgive us, and lean on His strength to become more and more like Him.

If any of you are struggling with wanting to die – please call 1-800-273-8255 – get help.

Talk to someone. Don’t struggle all by yourself – there are people who care about you! I know it’s very scary to think about telling your parents, but you must.
You cannot hide in the dark – there is no help in the dark. But in the light – there is help – and hope. So talk to someone. Now.
Life is worth living. And you are precious to God, to me, and to many others. Don’t give up.

I am praying for you.

who am I really?

October 10, 2010 in secret high school with 0 Comments

From a reader:

Just a girl

Just a person

Just someone who’s worthless

Does someone care?

Does someone know?

Or am I just as unknown as a UFO?

Why am I here?

Someone must want me

But why make it hard so I just can’t see?

There’s someone out there

They have a revolution

But we haven’t found it yet

We’re numb to the solution.

It’s God we’re after

He has our life planned

And he holds us all in the palm of his hand

All our worries

And all our fears

Will never sum up to all those he cleared
 
                     
So you’re really a princess of God


He loves you so much and will never let you down

lonely

September 4, 2010 in secret high school with 0 Comments

I pretend I am happy and have all the answers to help everyone else with problems.


I really am lonely, stressed out, and can’t even deal with my own problems.


I wish I had all the answers and people could see how I really feel.


It might be different if I relied on God more.

 
Dear Lonely,

If we had all the answers and knew what to do in every situation – then we wouldn’t need God. You recognize that you don’t have all the answers – that’s a good thing. The question is – where will you go for the answers?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. (Prov 3:5-6)

You probably have heard that verse before, but really look at it – God promises to lead us, but we have to fully rely on Him. We have to pursue Him – and a relationship with Him. We have to make the time to read the Word, learn from Him and talk with Him.

Think if you had a friend at school and you pretty much ignored the friend except when you needed help. Or you needed to borrow her notes. Or needed some other favor. Would that person feel like they were you were friend, or might they feel used? 

God loves you – more than you can imagine – and He will never leave you nor forsake you. But He wants a real relationship with you. He wants to count you as a friend. That can only happen if you want that too. It can only happen if you make that time to spend to get to know Him. Then He will be able to help you sort out the questions of your life. Help you figure out if maybe you’ve taken on too much. Be a friend to you.

I am praying for you. 

James 1:5; John 10:4; Psalm 32:8; Is. 42:16; Deut 32:11; Luke 1:79; John 10:27; Heb. 13:5; Is. 41:10

hurting myself

August 4, 2010 in depression & suicide, secret high school with 0 Comments

I promised my boyfriend I would stop hurting myself.

A week ago I tore my room apart screaming and whimpering like a wounded animal looking for my knife.

I think I need help but I’m too scared to admit I’m not the happy person everyone thinks I am.

-H


Dearest H,

It is so hard to have a secret. Secrets isolate us. Secrets keep us in chains. The enemy wants to keep us isolated because it keeps us in chains. I know how hard it will be to speak up and admit that you are struggling – but you must. Don’t let the enemy keep you from hope and help. Because the biggest lie of all is the one that makes you think there is no hope. That it can never change. It can change. There is hope. With God, all things are possible. But the first step is to speak up – and get some help from a trusted adult. You need others by your side so that you can find your way to the healing God offers.

Here is a list of books and websites for both you – and the person you go to for help:

I’m hoping something here might be able to help you get started. And please, please know that I am praying for you. 

grades

May 30, 2010 in secret high school with 0 Comments

i love the Beka books and it helped me a lot, but i am having a little problem with grades. My grades let say aren’t the best, i try hard but i easily get distracted. I am worried i wont have a future. As in a job. I feel really alone and weird. I don’t even think i will be able to get into college. What shall i do?

 
From Sarah:

I’m glad the books have helped but so sorry to hear that you’re struggling in school. I used to be a teacher, and while I don’t know what grade you’re in, i can tell you what you need to do is ask for some help. Most schools have resources to assist in whatever areas you’re having a hard time with. There is no shame in getting help! I’ll repeat that. There is no shame in getting help. It’s the smartest thing you can do for yourself. Don’t give up. It may also be that you just need some better study skills. Do some searches for study skills to get tips on how to study “smarter”. Or ask your teachers for some ways to help you study.

Your education is of such great value. Don’t let discouragement over your grades set in without reaching out. 

I am praying for you.

lost

May 30, 2010 in questions about faith, secret high school with 0 Comments

I pretend my faith is strong

I really am lost
I wish I had the answer key to all my questions

It might be different if God answered.

 
To Lost:

Answers come in many ways – through His Word, through His still, small voice, through others who walk with Him closely. To hear, something is required from us. We have to be still. We have to realize that we might not get the answer we want. And we have to willing to trust that God’s answer – even if it’s not what we want to hear – is the better answer. It’s always the better answer. I am as grateful for the times He has said “yes” as I am for the times he said “no”. Seek Him, get to know Him deeply, and follow Him. There is no better path.
I am praying for you…

Read Matthew 13…

Love,

Sarah

stressed

May 28, 2010 in secret high school with 0 Comments

I pretend to be all right,

I really am stressed, depressed, angry

I wish I could just be me and have fun,

It might be different if I stopped worrying about what other people think of me.

Really more then anything, I wanna be close to God.

depression

April 16, 2010 in depression & suicide, secret high school with 0 Comments

From K:

I suffer from depression, I can’t tell my mom because I’m to scared to find out what will happen. I’ve often thought about suicide being an option but never actually gotten the pills out of the closet. I just wanted to say thanks, I’ve been doing better but I still have those thoughts sometimes. What do I do now? Thanks

Sarah’s thoughts:

Dear K:

I am so glad to hear that the Beka books have helped you. Truly. And I totally understand about being scared to share about your depression – but depression is not something to mess around with. It messes up your thinking to the point that you aren’t thinking clearly anymore. And the fact that you’ve considered suicide (SO glad to hear you didn’t get those pills out!) means that it is more than you can handle alone. You need someone you can trust to talk to about how you’re feeling. It’s also possible that you need some medication to help balance things out inside of you. That means a visit to the doctor. Don’t let the enemy convince you that you are alone in this and that it would be too scary to share. Be strong and brave – tell someone what you are struggling with. Get some help. There’s no shame in that at all. You need to do this K – and it won’t be as bad as you think. Write me back and let me know what happens – and in the meantime, I’m praying for you…


If any of you are thinking about suicide you can call 1-800-SUICIDE at any time for help – someone will be there to talk to you.

Suicide is never the solution. But you’ll need help to find the right solution.

how can we know God is real?

April 15, 2010 in questions about faith, secret high school with 0 Comments

From A:

How are we suppose to know if were following the the right God Christianity makes the most sense but how I am and everybody else suppose to know if Jesus Christ is real this is the question that bothers me and nobody that I know, knows my secret and I don’t want them to I’m getting closer to God each day but I wish I new If I made the right chose and I hope I did.
 

Sarah’s thoughts:

I’m one who was lost for many years, and searched in many different directions before being found by God. I wanted the truth, above all else. It sounds like you do too. But I can assure you that Jesus – the Jesus found in the Bible – is the right choice. It’s not always an easy path – that’s why he called it “narrow” and said that “few find it”. But part of why it’s not an easy path is because this life we live, this world around us, it’s only a temporary home. Jesus is preparing you for eternity. And that means that sometimes, even frequently, He does things and allows things we don’t always understand. But He is with us, wanting us to press in, search for him and find him. Our faith is precious to Him, probably because faith is something we must exercise as we seek to follow Him. You have made the right choice. Your fears and doubts – they are normal, but they are also “earthly”. Let God’s spirit led you “by the spirit”. (Check out Galatians for some great stuff).
 

someone else

April 13, 2010 in secret high school with 1 Comment

From C:

I pretend to be happy.
I really am depressed.

I wish I could be somebody else.

It might be different if I weren’t letting you down.

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