I used to like making plans. From the time I was 10, I planned on becoming an actress with the full awareness that I could end up eating cat food and living in a closet in NYC. I was willing because it was my dream. Then I went away to college and met this person named Jesus. He changed my life – but my plans stayed the same up until my junior year of college. I figured He had just joined me on my journey, but it turns out He wanted me to join Him on a different journey. I was walking down campus walk when I heard God’s voice for the first time. It wasn’t some audible booming “from the sky” kind of voice, but I knew immediately it was God.
“Drop your theater major.”
It was the end of my junior year and I had one more class left to complete my theater major. It made no sense to drop the major. But as sure as I was that it was God’s voice, I was also sure of something else. In those few small words God was asking me a question: Will you choose theater? Or will you choose me?
I didn’t even hesitate. I didn’t even go back to my room and think about it. I walked right into the registrar office and filled out the paperwork and it was done. Theater Major gone. Since I was double major I was able to continue with my psychology major and graduate on time without any delay but the impact on me was significant.
Theater was my plan and passion but God showed me it had become an idol in my heart – something I wanted more than I wanted God. God doesn’t share our hearts with idols so the idol had to go. And it hasn’t been the only time I’ve had to lay something on the altar and choose to follow His plan rather than my own.
There’s a way that seems right to a man but in the end it leads to death. (Proverbs 14:12)
Real life. Abundant life. The life we are meant to live. It’s not found in making plans. It’s found in the One who is the Maker of all. If we follow Him – He’ll get us to where we’re supposed to be. But in order to choose Him, we have to turn away from our self. Are we wanting God to simply bless us as on our journey? Or do we want to join God on His journey? I have seen too much of God’s faithfulness to want anything more than Him. What He wants. I know that He’s got a much better plan than me anyway!
Anything that you need to let go of today?
Dear Lord Jesus, help us to lay down our own plans and desires so that we can follow You with our full hearts. Help us to focus on what You’ve given us to do today and trust you with the rest. Help us to not get caught up in making plans and instead help us to get caught up in knowing You more fully. Thank you for the gift of your son so that we can fully belong to You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.